Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Life in Hindsight

It's been 3 years since I've posted anything on this blog,  I would assume no one was checking this blog every day for new content. If you have, my sincerest apologies. But when you check today, you're going to be pleasantly surprised!

Today is all about the rear view mirror. The thing you check only so often, like when you're backing up or have been speeding and you notice some flashing lights behind you. The point is, we don't always look back, but when we do, we always assume we get the full clear picture. We don't. That rear view mirror is just as distorted and uncertain as the front windshield.

It's easy to look back and think about what was the right and the wrong decision. Because you have all the information now. But you don't have all the information. You only have your recollection of all the available information. Here's a list of known memory biases. We all have that one friend that just slowly embellishes a story more and more until they no longer remember the truth. We are all the person to some extent. As beautiful and powerful as the human mind is, it is no where near perfect.

So what does this mean? Well, for me it means I'm keeping up all of my previous posts up. No matter how weird, no matter how angsty, they are the closest thing I will have to reliving those memories.  It's crazy to think I spent all that time and energy toward certain people that stopped reciprocating long ago. That friends came and went and all I did was waste effort trying to keep up with them. But it's not a waste, just because it seems like a waste in the rear view mirror. I have no idea what's ahead. I have no idea what's in their minds or how I affected them. All I can see is what's in front of me and what's behind me. And I don't even have a clear picture of that.